Life

I made a mistake tonight.
One that makes me feel like I was kicked in the gut.
One that I have been know to never, ever make.

I looked at pictures of you from when you were a baby...


Pictures of your first Christmas....


And of your little toes....


I looked at pictures of you learning to crawl...


And now I'm sitting in bed wishing I could just go pick you up and put you in bed with us.

I'm wishing time didn't go by so quickly and that you didn't grow so fast.

I'm wishing you'd let me still rock you like a baby without you saying, Mama! I'm not a baby! I'm a big girl! Put me down.

I'm wishing I had realized when you were so little just how quickly time flies by.

I'm wishing that I had more hours in the day to spend with you. That the laundry would just clean itself and the dishes would magically be put in the dishwasher on their own, so we could just play together all day long.

I love you, my "big" girl...