What am I complaining about??

This morning Emma has been pretty fussy...she's been up since about 7:30 and is fine when I'm holding her or nursing her but when she falls asleep in my arms, the second I put her down, she wakes up. I started timing it and in less than a minute after I put her down she would wake up and cry. The second I pick her up, she's fine and will fall back asleep. After about the 10th time of this (no exaggeration) I had to take a deep breath to calm myself. I needed to get in a load of laundry, make Acadia lunch, clean up after lunch, empty the dishwasher, clean the counters.

That's when it hit me. What am I complaining about??? Am I really complaining because I'd rather do housework than hold a baby? Am I crazy? I almost laughed at the thought of it. In a year, Emma won't want to just lay in my arms all the time. In a year she will be off and running with her big sister. My last baby. Am I really complaining about *having* to hold her too much this morning?

So here I sit...on the couch relaxing with my girl in my arms. She is sleeping peacefully and I'm just watching the rain and listening to her breathing...Cadi is down for a nap and the house is quiet and very dirty...and I am one very happy mommy...