Tuesday, January 25, 2011
This kept them busy for hours!! Acadia put her lady bug tent out in the hall and hiked through the rain forest all afternoon.
We should play together. You should come to my house this week! We should have a snack together. And we should have more snacks when we're hungry.
Maybe we can go for a ride to the store and we can recycle just like I learned in that recycling song.
How about the next day I go to your house, I bring my My Little Pony? And maybe we can play with my stamps.
Monday, January 24, 2011
-16 outside. So last night at dinner Acadia and I made a list of things she wanted to do today. We were able to get done a few things and will have to finish the rest up over the week :)
Here is her list:
1. Dress up and have a tea party
2. Play Captain Hook and Peter Pan
3. Read books
4. Write a letter to Max
5. Make a rainbow picture
6. Go for a hike in the rain forest and camp out in the lady bug tent
7. Bake cookies
Organization does not come naturally to me. I really wish it did - I'm working on it, but I'm so envious of my friends (ahem - Jamie, Christine!) who are just organized. Who actually like to clean and organize their homes. I am slowly working on it this year and have begun organizing different parts of our house. We don't have a large home and I'm constantly trying to de-clutter and make our space work for us.
One of the bigger projects I tackled this year has been a recipe book. We probably have 20 cook books and use maybe 5-10 recipes in each book. We have tons of index cards filled with recipes and magazine pages floating around in my recipe drawer with meals I've been meaning to cook. I have been meaning to make a recipe book for years now but just never found the time.
I finally decided that last week was going to be the week. I have spent every minute I have this past week looking through every single recipe I have. I would attach a sticky note to every recipe book and jot down the recipes from that book that I either love or have wanted to try. I then photocopied all those recipes and sold the cook books at Barnes and Noble. I printed off every recipe I have added to my google reader (the program that lets you know when any blog you read has been updated) and went through all the loose papers in my drawers and recycled the ones I knew I would never make.
The remaining recipes went into our new binder! I used the money I made with selling my cook books and went to Staples to buy a binder, paper protectors and scrap booking paper (to be used as dividers). I printed out tabs for - breakfast, appetizers, soups, salads, sides, veggies, pasta, Mexican, seafood, chicken, beef, pork and desserts.
And it's done!
Friday, January 21, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Anyway, back to laundry. I was folding and was about done when Acadia ran in laughing. Mama! Come look at what Emma did! Never. Ever. Good. I ran out and she had dumped her entire bowl of soup all over the table and they had been playing with it. Splashing the chicken noodle soup all over the kitchen, each other, their clothes. If I hadn't been so upset, I would have taken a picture - it was crazy messy.
Now, I don't know what made today any different than all the other days - I am CONSTANTLY picking up their messes, as moms do. But I just snapped. I yelled. I pointed my finger at them and screamed. I put them in bed without finishing their lunches and told them in a high pitched voice that I'm sure only dolphins could hear, I've HAD it! If you want to play with your food, then lunch is OVER! Get to BED! NOW! And I put them in their rooms, shut out the lights and went into the kitchen to clean up the 10th mess from today alone.
I turned into my new best friend, talking to myself like a crazy person.
- Oh no they DI'NT!! Oh NO they DI'NT!
- I spend more time cleaning up after them than I do playing with them!
- I can't wait until they get their first apartments - the first thing I'm going to do is go over there with a bowl of soup and dump it on their floor! That will show them! Ha!
- Seriously! Can't I do ONE DAMN THING without them creating another mess?!
- I swear to GOD if I step on one more effing Lego, I'm going to throw them all out!
Oh, yes. I talked and yelled at and to myself. I found out that I am actually a very good and attentive listener. But I did feel a bit crazy. And then I went into Acadia's room and brought her her monkey that she always sleeps with and found her crying. And the worst part is that it wasn't her annoying, whining cry - it was a soft, sad one. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she asked for her Daddy. And I just welled up with tears. I gave her a big hug and spoke to her as I would a grown up. I told her I was very sorry. That I was exhausted and sometimes Mommy's get tired of cleaning up after their children. That sometimes it's hard being a Mommy but that I wouldn't change it for anything in the entire world. I told her that there is no excuses for yelling - that we should always use our "indoor" voices and that Mommy broke the rule. Then I bribed her and told her that the moment she woke up, we would do a special craft that her pen pal had just mailed to her. She laughed and clapped her hands and gave me a big hug. And I felt like the shittiest mom ever.
How are children so forgiving? Imagine if a friend yelled at you like that? I'd probably delete them as my Facebook friend.
So once again, my little Acadia June has taught me a life lesson. Forgive yourself. Seriously. We ALL yell at our kids. All of us. At one point or another, we have lost it, screamed, cried, walked away from them and slammed the door. Forgive yourself. Every day, we deal with tantrums, messes, picking up after this one, sending that one into time out, stepping and tripping over toys, waking up in the middle of the night to give Tylenol. Holy shit. Being a parent is hard. And exhausting. Forgive yourself. For the times that you yell. For the times that you don't have enough patience to deal with them. For the times that you feel like all you want to do is run away and get ONE good night's sleep. It happens to all of us. We're not bad parents, we're just human. Trying to do the best we can and just keep up with the demands of running a household, working, taking care of our children. You're doing the best you can. Remember that the next time you lose your patience, whether that be in an hour, tomorrow or next week. You're doing the best you can. So forgive yourself and remember that no one is perfect. And guess what? You're kids will love you anyway...
Friday, January 14, 2011
- A bigger house
- A new dining room table
- A bedroom set
- A new car
- More money
- Less debt
- Brand new washer and dryer
- Flat screen tv
- New entertainment center
- A vacation once a year to a new location
Things I have in life:
- A happy and healthy family
Monday, January 10, 2011
I know it's just a case of a 3 year old boy being a 3 year old boy but it made me stop and think about her life. I think I have it so hard right now because of how demanding day to day life is. The girls depend on me for everything. But even still, I realize I have it easy.
Some day, I'm going to have to send her to school, and there will be children there that won't like her. There will be a boy she has a crush on that doesn't feel the same way. There will be people who are deliberately mean to her. That will make fun of her.
We've all been there. Either we've been the ones who are mean or else people have been mean to us. Most likely, we've been both - the mean kids and the one crying because someone made fun of us. Kids can be cruel. They don't understand the harm their words can cause to other children.
Please know how much her little sister looks up to her. Know that she watches every move her big sister makes. That she wants to be just like her....
Please know how much her mommy and daddy love her....how she has her daddy wrapped around her finger....
Please know that the very first thing she did when she was born...when I was sobbing so hard I could barely see her....that she heard my voice and looked up, straight into my eyes. Please know that she had me from that very second she was born and that she will always have me. Please love her.
Please know that she is the most wonderful, funny, caring child there could ever be.
I can deal with tantrums...I can deal with picking up after her...I can deal with having to help with the most basic things - getting milk, helping brush her teeth...what I can't deal with...what I could never imagine is....someone being mean to this face...so I beg of you - to every child that will enter into my little Acadia June's life....please love her....we do....and I can't imagine anyone else not falling completely and head over heals...in love with her....